speak the truth
its the only way to win
this battle
it comes as a surprise to most

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eGaDCEhS4qg&feature=plcp

Panic consumes me
I attempt to fight
But my body resist any and all change
Though this is not a comfortable position
It is a familiar place

And in the end
we stick to what we know
rather than what we don't
no matter how much it hurts our souls
we paste a smile so the pain doesn't show

Save me from the flames
Extinguish all the rage
and free me
Show me that there's a world
beyond my own
that there's hope here

time takes it toll
upon anyone who resists it
but i was told/i've been told
that there's a proper way
to fight this

so i emerge
to conquer all fears
to destroy the past
i'm born again
into a shell
that protects me
from all the world

the scars, the bruises
they all begin to fade
as i begin to view life
in a different way
its a struggle
but i achieve
what once seemed impossible
what once was a dream

salvation exists
never doubt it

the road here is not easy
but it makes the journey ahead
livable

Listen And Read

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eGaDCEhS4qg&feature=plcp

and dreams morphed into nightmares

every memory i spent my life repressing shot up

its flames devastating every part of my body

i tried to resist it

pulling away at every burn

wincing at every second of pain

but soon i became too tired to fight

and i surrendered.

a lifelong battle came to an end

with the same heat that it began with

hopelessness

New Beginnings

Hello Internet! I'm M and this is my blog. To be honest, I'm starting this because summer is leaving me bored to tears...and I feel like I need a change. So who am I? I am a 17 year old Pakistani-American who loves makeup, alternative music, a little fashion, and cult favorites like Harry Potter. I will be attending Princeton University in the fall so I'm a bit of a nerd as well :) I hope the rare person to view this blog enjoys my rambles on records, rouge, and reality <3